October 15 

Shit , I’m nervous , actually a bit jangled up. I didn’t think I’d be invested in anyone this early .Emma and Leroy are talking to me but I’m not in their world at the moment . I already have a commitment that has created a lot of pain , but  this should be no strings attached . There’s a basic understanding , I get it but it shouldn’t matter . Sean Mcvay , he’s got a magnetism that first pricked my interest . Ok I ‘l check this guy out a bit , but I don’t give a shit . That’s what I first thought . Not now . On moral grounds I declared that I wasn’t gonna get into bed with anyone who moved in from out of town . The LA Rams have chosen me , I didn’t want to admit it , but there it is . Maybe it’s the very first sign of Americanisation .Theyve got the youngest and the most charismatic coach (Sean Mcvay), they’re new to town and I guess that’s what we’ve got in common .I’m gonna stick with them now . They’ve just got over the line as I write and I’m embarrassed to say I’m relieved, yep I’m half glass empty . Fuck it,that’s what happens when you’ve followed St. kilda all your life , but I’m sensing this is different. They smell like winners . The Rams , yeah I’m gonna be riding the new glamour horse and she’s fast and pretty and is …… winning . Get on the Rams !! Now I sound like a wanker … adios amigos .